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Sunday, February 1, 2015

Baby Steps...

So once a month was not the blogging schedule that I wanted to aspire to...but we all take baby steps towards our goals! And one might ask, if no one is reading your blog, why bother? Well, first of all, it is a goal I set forth for myself. And I am tired of not reaching my goals - by not even trying. (Sound familiar?) Secondly, Just because you're not reading it today doesn't mean that you won't some day. (Fingers crossed.) And secondly, sometimes you just want to speak/vent without judgement! Because let's face it, everyone has an opinion about how you could do things differently. I hear this most days of my life, even though some people may not even realize that they are doing it! And going through college as an art major, putting yourself on display to be critiqued to death, I can take some criticism. But criticizing to a gnat's ass about everything? Well come one, everyone has their limits! But I digress...

So eventually, I will start posting some creations and not just my sometimes incoherent ramblings...we're just waiting for that creativity to wake up. I'm hoping that girl is not lost forever...all for now!

Sunday, January 4, 2015

I am a horrible blogger....still

So I am still am absolutely horrible blogger, this is no big new flash for me. Or the 1 person who has actually read my blog. And I'm not even sure why it is important for me to continue to put this on my list of things to do better - I really don't expect that I will be one of those women who start a blog and have it become their primary source of income, although that would be nice. 

So it's a new year and with a new year comes a new list of things that I want to accomplish for this year. Now you may notice that almost all of the items are the same as what I have included before. But I am going into this year with a slightly different attitude. This is the year of no excuses. I am tired, just tired. I am tired of making excuses as to why I don't take steps to make my life better; both personally and professionally. I am tired of living behind my insecurities that keep me from living the life that I feel I would be so good at having! Now I am not expecting that I will just storm out of my little box I keep myself locked in for protection, but I'm going to try my best to take those small steps that will eventually lead into a steady jog!

So here we go, the 15 things I want to accomplish for 2015:
1. Blog more - duh. I'm hoping by writing about my year, I will hold myself more accountable to make the changes I want to make. Because maybe, just maybe, someone will see this and ask me how well I'm doing at reaching my goals!
2. Take more walks. This will not only help me with #9, but it will help to keep me out of the aforementioned box that I lock myself in to keep myself from getting hurt.
3. Be Tina. If it's one thing I have to come to realize in the last few months is that I am sick of apologizing for being me. I know I have shortcomings, but don't we all? And I am the only one I know that constantly gets their shortcomings pointed out to them. I am no longer going to put myself in situations that I don't want to be in or where I feel like I have to apologize for being me. And I'm going to reduce and/or eliminate those around me who making me feel filled with anxiety over just being me. 
4. Make/Do at least 15 things that I have pinned on Pinterest. (Aren't we all guilty of this?!)
5. Make more cards. Seems appropriate since I continue to buy stuff to make the cards!
6. Send more cards. Especially at random and for no reason!
7. Take a class - Photography, cooking, etc.
8. Put myself out there! Try for happy!
9. Reach my happy weight.
10. Take more pictures. 
11. Make a book. Let's not call it a scrapbook, b/c let's face it: I am not a soccer mom. 
12. Prep for my first 5K. I've never been a runner. Even when I was in track I was little Miss Short Distance. So this one will be very rewarding. 
13. Create something amazing. I don't know what that will be, but I'll know it when I do it!
14. Make a new friend or reconnect with an old one. You have no idea how hard it is to make new friends once you're out of school and just how easy it is to lose touch with them. 
15. Have a fun themed party. Let's keep our thoughts clean here people!

I'm also going to give myself little monthly goals of things to do on my road to happy. I hope this is the year that I know it can be. I think I'm finally ready for it. And ready to stick it to a few people who think I am not ready, worthy, etc. - hee hee.

Wish me luck - And ask me how it's going! Everyone needs a little push every once and awhile. 

~Tina